late august update

 hello angels! forgive me for going so long without any posts. I've honestly felt so unmotivated and unsure of topics to write about. please leave me suggestions! (: 

things have been well, but a bit boring. post-grad is hitting me quite hard, considering high school was already a mess, but the after effects are lonely. I've applied for a job, and have yet to hear back. im trying to keep things busy with my depop shop, but i have not had lots of sales. i write in my diary all the time, but that too, is uneventful. i have to go to the dentist tomorrow, which im so not happy about. summer has been full of nothing to say the least. not the way i imagined spending my "summer after senior year." its a bit disappointing, considering i have dreamed of this summer for years. but things are looking up. slightly. i honestly don't know what else to say, other than i do really miss writing to you all. 

xoxo

healing my inner child

 hello angels! recently i've been engaging in so many things i enjoyed while i was growing up. i feel like as we grow into adulthood, especially as women, we are shunned out of our childhood interests and forced to grow up. even as a teenager, i felt ashamed to enjoy the same things as i did when i was younger. i feel like a lot of the mainstream culture shoves young women out of tween/teenhood and straight into adulthood. being late gen z, i feel like i was one of the last tweens. i shopped at justice, listened to one direction, loved disney movies, played with dolls, and my only semblance of makeup was experimenting in the bathroom with drugstore makeup before a shower. but being in middle school, post-covid (2022 and after.) the environment was suddenly harsh, and being a tween was no more. the friends i picked and the idea of culture from then to now, made me ashamed of who i was. because i was told i could not like those things anymore. it was time for me to grow up.

my boyfriend's a vampire ~ a fall playlist

 inspired by all of my favorite 2000s vampire media <3

my return after a long, uneventful summer

 hello angels! it's been over a month since i last posted, please forgive me. my post-senior-year-summer-slump hit, --HARD. but after a long-awaited return, i am back :) i'd like to thank you guys for thirteen followers! it's not a whole lot, but each and every one of you are so important to me, i never thought i'd get like... more than two followers, lol.